I still want to be a rockstar…

Almost 2012 update. This is going to be a huge year. I’ll start the year mourning that my kids are still trapped. I’ll get a decent amount back when i file taxes. I’ll see my babies again for the first time in almost a year. I’ll either figure out how to reach urban middle schoolers, or i won’t. We’ll know if a teacher’s salary is enough for our reunited family. I’ll face that my primary function in life is now being a dad.

A lot of this just has to do with growing up (still?! when does this end?). Reading some Douglas Coupland always puts me in a better mood about the realities and certainties of life.

No matter what happens, I’m pretty sure that i’ll continue to tilt after windmills.

July 13, 2009
Some quotations from Douglas Coupland, taken from his website

As we age we passionlessly assess what we have and what we lack, and then go about making the best of it, like an actor who goes from playing leads to playing character roles; like a party girl who goes from being a zany kook to being a cautionary tale for the younger girls.

You spend a much larger part of your life being old, not young.

In our heads we’re all about 33 years old.

By twenty-five you know you’re never going to be a rock star, by thirty you know you’re never going to be a dentist, and by forty there are maybe three things left that you can still be – and even then, that’s only if you run as fast as you possibly can to try to catch the train.

You can’t get mad at weather because weather’s not about you. Apply that lesson to most other aspects of life.

I really like the last one, and it comes at a time when i really need to try to apply it myself. But, I still want to be a rockstar.